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I really want to weigh myself to get a starting weight for the next few weeks. I know that I was 93kg at the start of May but have I gone up since then and how much? I'm trying to do calculations of projected weight at the start of August and it's driving me a little crazy not knowing where to start.

Does anyone else do the 'if I lose weight at the rate of xkg per week, in y number of weeks, I'll weight this much' internal monologues with themselves? Sad I know...

Day Two Tick

Day two of my 8 week plan to get down to my weight of 10 years ago has gone quite well. I feel like I'm slowly easing back into my healthy living routine after a month of just being able to eat whatever was available.

For breakfast I had the following:

- 100g blueberries

- 100g raspberries

- 1 banana

- 1 apple

- 1 pear

all chopped up into a big bowl of fruit. Mmmm.....

For lunch I heated up some soup in the microwave - 186 calories, thank you very much. I then resisted the alcohol temptation in the pub after work in favour of tomato juice but succumbed to the can't be arsed to cook so will stop by the bakery for dinner. At least I managed to rein it in for just one cheese bagel - yum!

And my gym dilemma of yesterday was resolved after I realised I had a doctor's appointment this morning before work and couldn't fit the gym in as well. I didn't end up going after work either - my meeting finished at 8.30pm after which I went for a quick 45 minutes to the pub and then onto home.

I have spent the past 30 minutes making my dinner for tomorrow though. The plan is to have fruit again for breakie, chop up some vegetables for a salad lunch and then eat my cooked dinner in between the work event tomorrow and meeting up with my friends afterwards - thereby being healthy and saving money!

Will I make it to the gym tomorrow before work? I feel that the 6.30am starts are a trifle doomed given my general state of sleep deprivation. I had 7 hours last night which gives me an average of 4.5 hours since the weekend. How do other people manage to get early nights?!

Home and Onwards

I'm back in London after one month away and it is weird to be back at work, in my house and on my bed. I was planning on heading to the gym after work today but a combination of 3 hours of sleep on the flight to London and a 7 hour day at work meant that I was just way too knackered.

Instead I went shopping and for £20.82 I bought:

- a bag of apples

- a bag of pears

- 2 boxes of raspberries

- 1 box of blueberries

- 4 fairtrade bananas

- 1 bag of satsumas

- 500g potatoes

- 1 red pepper

- 4 courgettes

- 1 box of tomatoes

- 1 pots of tomato and basil soup

- 2 pots of spinach and nutmeg soup

- 1 pot of yoghurt

I had some soup and bread tonight for dinner but I cannot wait to eat tomorrow. Fruit, I've missed you so much!

I want to start back on my routine of fruit for breakfast, soup or salad for lunch, fruit for snacks and then a cooked dinner. I suspect that I've got this the wrong way around and I should be having the filling meal at lunchtime and the soup/ salad for dinner - but that would involve cooking lunch the night before.

I've torn whether or not to go to the gym tomorrow before work. I really want to start exercising after a whole month away and I'm worried that my meetings will finish too late for me to be able to get proper gym time but I'm sooooo tired.

I'm just impatient to start this already - I want to go on an 8 week exercise and food plan. Why 8 weeks? It's my birthday in a couple of months time and I really, really want to be able to, on that day, get on the weighing machine and see exactly what I would have seen 10 years ago. I started losing weight the autumn after my 16th birthday and I was so close to 'normal' weight before Christmas hit and I decided to 'take a break.' 84kg is quite a symbolic weight for me, in addition to which, it is also across the threshold into overweightdom and away from obesity.

I'm not quite sure whether it's possible but I'm most definitely going to try...